Monday, July 26, 2010
@ 5:07 AM
promised myself that i will forget marvyn.
i can do this.
even if there is no one out there who is willing to help, i can stand on my own.
i dont have to dwell on him since i have someone who cared bout me.
now my relationship gets complicated.
i am sorry to flare up just now even for a small matter.
i was thinking bout alot of things, and we cant even decide where to eat.
time is running out for you, but i wanted to eat pizzahut.
im th only one who always cause you to be late, and do you know it feel just so bad?
this is only adding on to my mind and seriously im super upset with myself.
you just dont understand how much i dont want to not miss marvyn.
this things cnt be forced uh.
i need time, but it seem that when you say you would give it to me, you seem unsure.
seriously, im a human and i can feel what your thinking.
it seem like we switched our lifes.
i dont like to see you be hurt anymore, thats why im trying so hard to move on.
within this short period of time, i did try, but did you notice?
you texted pamelia about our problems, who am i?
i know you want her opinions, but did you want my point of view?
its always me sharing to you and you sharing to her.
im sorry to say, in this relationship, she is only an outsider.
im upset that you're upset, my dear.
i understand that you are trying your best to make this work out.
but i kept throwing temper at small things.
because im too stressed, im too tired, im giving up.
im a failure.
