Wednesday, August 18, 2010
@ 7:38 AM
Im back blogging after being dead for god knows how long.
life had been sucha drag.
like th same thing keep repeating all over again and again.
im too tired to go this stupid process again.
test after test, quiz after quiz till today i really put myself to seriously touch on my books.
what have i been doing this past few months?
man, i must start self reflecting again.
im just standing in th middle of nowhere, lost of where to head to.
this is stressing me out.
so much for being a girl, not to talk much in class, i still did it.
so much for being a friend, i keep throwing temper.
so much for being in a complicated status, i felt so pressurized.
thank god, im so blessed to have friends who had been through with me all along.
god bless them.
but, nothing good seem to be coming to my life.
i havent been doing much of a revision when examinations are really less then a month.
less then a month.
wonderful nat.
in relationship, i failed being a girl that you wish to have all along.
i did try, but i failed, and know what i wont bother trying again because i know i would fail.
you helped me up, but halfway through you let me off.
every single time i try to care so much, you didnt care.
once i didnt care, you said i dont love you.
i love you, but not like how i used to.
im sorry, i just cant take pressure.
if you were to say im heartless, leaving you is th heartless thing that i dont wish to do.
cause i love you.
you have been cold to me since forever.
that doesnt help, baby no, it doesnt.
somemore you mention about pretty girls, how do you think i would feel?
i told you, i wanted to have a time alone, to think about it thoroughly.
to stand up on my own and be what i wanted to be.
i sound so determine here, but what am i doing or thinking now?
thinking about how you would feel when i hang your phone.
help me anyone?
i have no faith in myself anymore, no longer.
