this song i know it from seehuiting (L)
hmm i find it rather touching, though i have th one i love with me and th song doesnt really relate to my love life.
i dont know why, i just reminds me of you.
for some reasons, i feel lonely.
more then ever before.
though we text each other and update each other over th phone, th feeling is just different.
maybe im thinking way too much, but this few days when im sick, where are you?
not comparing but i was there for you when you just had a cough, eventhough im tired after sch.
i sat th crowded train to and fro just to make sure you had your medicine.
for my case, i have to take care of my own since your so busy with your sch life.
sometimes i walk back from sch, all alone, no text, no call from you.
today we was supposed to meet after choir, but you say you cant.
we planned to meet at woodlands at 630.
i planned to break fast with you.
i planned to eat tom yum bah mian.
i planned to give you a long long hug after your busy days.
so much plans, but in th end, i have to eat th leftover and drink mineral water at home.
today morning you didnt give me a morning call.
you only gave me a "good morning honey." msg.
its not that im asking you to do whatever i want.
i just need your attention on me.
you neglected me, but i just kept quiet and continue giving you a smile on every messages.
didnt want you to pon choir, so i make you go instead of meeting me, your stead.
i feel horrible.
or maybe worst then that.
im not complaining whatever you cant fulfil.
i feel pain in my chest, im totally afraid of losing you once more.
im afraid that your love would fade.
im afraid im afraid im afraid.
why does this paragraph only concentrates on "i".
am i being too selfish to only think of myself?
im trying to understand though, what you are doing.
but i cant help but to feel lonely.
perhaps, too lonely.
always hold back my tears whenever you say "sorry cant meet."
its the second time now that you said that to me.
what am i asking for?
i just want th old you where you care bout me, i share my dream, my hurt, my days with you.
but everything changed, maybe because your too busy, for me.
or maybe, im thinking too much.
maybe maybe maybe.
full of doubts.
but one thing i cant doubt is my love for you.
iloveyouverymuch.
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Wednesday, August 25, 2010
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